Suicide is such an unforgiving thing, not in the act itself but by the devastation it leaves behind.
Some are lucky enough to find some kind of explanation, whilst others are left with nothing, except the disbelief, guilt, anger and then the deep seated loss.
I know a lot of people used it as a cry for help that went to far, whilst others just cant see a way out or forward and use it as a means to escape, either for themselves or to relieve in their minds , their loved ones from their suffering.
I have seen the devastation it leaves behind first hand by trying to share the grief with a friend of mine whos brother left too soon just two weeks before my son died.
The not knowing anything was wrong, or the idea that they didnt reach out for help was and still is unbearable for the family.
In the same instance im not one of those people who bring religion into the subject, shaking a finger and saying their sole will never get into heaven ect ect, i dont believe that for a second.
Also i dont think suicide is a cowards act, i think it must take every last ounce of energy to be able to leave your loved ones in such a way, without warning, its a desperate act although it seems very selfish , we can only imagine how it must really be.
How do you feel about it ? xxx